Thursday, 29 October 2009

• Pet peeves, sloppy wet kisses, and regret maintenance

  At some point today or tomorrow SHE <== is going to say it. Like the back of my hand, I know this.  She is extremely capable and kinda amazing really.  Nothing that we do here is difficult per se, but there are so many steps to take and she knows them all!  I’m not talking about 4 or 5 steps either.  She’s probably responsible for 50 different processes and each process has 50 different steps and she remembers them all!  I couldn’t be happier for her presence on our team here.  But.  At some point, while she’s explaining some complex series of steps, she’s going to say, “We usually blah blah blah but in all reality we need to blah blah blah.” And then I’m going to choke back an unmanly scream.  It’s just a pet peeve of mine (are there ever just peeves or are there only pet ones?).  Whenever she says, “…in all reality…” I want to mention to her that reality either is or is not.  There can’t be some or few reality so how can there be all?  Yeesh!

  I know exactly what you’re thinking, btw.  You’re thinking, “Hey there Oak Cliff, you need to simmer down!” And, of course, you’re right.  I also need to simmer down when we consider him <==.  Truthfully…in all reality *grits teeth*…he is a fine upstanding person.  Loyal, conscientious, reliable, among many other qualities.  Thank goodness I don’t have a sister to test this on, but if I had a sister and she wanted to date him, I would say, “Well.  You could do worse.”  High praise indeed, from me, about a man.  I just have one slight little tiny pet peeve with him too – EVERY SINGLE WORD HE SAYS (!).

  So.  The problem is likely not with either of these two noble citizens.  Alas.  I must look at the man in the mirror – Thou art the man, Oak Cliff! The problem is that, in spite of my head turning good looks, discreet charm, and erudite compassion, I am an introvert at heart and I want everyone to just shut the heck up.  My kingdom for a moment’s silence!! *wails*

  Whenever I start getting all on edge like this, the best thing is to put on my head phones and seek solace in music’s golden tongue.  Today, I double-clicked on “How He Loves” and scarce three notes, ere Music’s golden tongue flatter’d to tears this aged man and poor.  Truly with this song, I have to be careful when I listen to it because I am Always Going To Cry.  Every time.  Kim Walker (that’s her singing) has a basement to her voice like Karen Carpenter.  She’s this slight, tiny thing with a voice like a waltzing valkyrie.  And yet, there’s something about the timbre of her voice in this song that touches me like nothing else.  Possibly because it is a live performance…maybe she’s tired by this time in her concert…or maybe the song is just too low for her to begin with. I dunno.  But there’s something about the fragility in her voice that goes so well with the words she’s singing.  At the same time since she’s singing from the basement, there is a Real Power in her that also fits with the words.

  So when I’m exhausting myself maintaining my pet peeves and otherwise thinking disagreeable thoughts, there’s nothing like How He Loves to turn me around.  My favorite line goes:

  So Heaven meets Earth like a sloppy wet kiss
   And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
  I don’t
  Have
  Time to maintain these regrets
  When I think about
  The way
  He loves us

  Have you ever heard anything like that?  Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss?  Uncomfortable imagery to some maybe, but not to me - I love it.  It fits perfectly in a waltz and in a song about how He loves us.  Kim Walker seems to love it too.  She means every word she says in this song it seems (I also get choked up when she says "...brace yourself!" for some reason...I don't know why).  So I'll keep my headphones on until the bad voices stop and I'll try not to cry too much and get some work done all at the same time.  Are there any songs that affect you like this?

  Here it is on youtube and also on xanga audio if you prefer:

  
  

  AU~brace yourself!

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